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For All Those Suffering With Suicidal Thoughts : 6 Pieces Of Wisdom


is a subject I seldom think of, or care to contemplate. I am writing this post today, because I am dedicated to offering value to all those my style of thinking can reach.

It is quite troubling to me that so many people I know, are at least somewhat considering suicide! Often, these appear to be otherwise brilliant people! So where did this toe-gem of a bad idea come from?

Granted, the stress level of modern society is off the hook! It seems to be becoming harder and harder to find a space to center oneself. Also, many personal expectations of life have been challenged by the changing times. We cannot expect to fulfill all, or even most of our vintage comprehensions of who we should be.

I suppose that some just want to clock out while they are ahead:]

There is another category of people considering suicide, because they are so tormented by physical or mental illness, that they find life unbearable. My heart goes out to these people. I can get that there is some point when suffering can overcome the will to live.

Regardless of the reasons,

I am asking that anyone who wishes to end their life do their very freakin’ best to find a calm spot, and think about this matter very carefully!

Now, get this….

I am in no way trying to preach to anyone about what’s wrong or right. It’s just that suicide is a decision you can not take back!

As a young kid, I was big into drama. Once, when I couldn’t get my way, I told my dad that if he would not let me do whatever, [I forgot what], I would kill myself!

I’m still shocked at my father’s wisdom in his response!

He didn’t even blink. Sitting wordless for a moment, he broke that silence with a haunting piece of wisdom.

“I learned a very important thing back when I was in the navy. See, when I was off duty, my friends and I liked to party, and we partied hard! We would get so drunk, that we were really insane. Despite that insanity, I never forgot the most important rule of my training, that it is unwise to enter any building with only one way out. If you must do so, always stand or sit facing the door, so you can see what’s going on, and who is coming in.

This has saved my life many times. I don’t want you to have to go to war in order to learn this. The worst thing about killing yourself, is that it is the ultimate room with no escape!

Once you enter that place,

it no longer matters if you change your mind. The time for choices will be over!”

That was all he told me about that, and reverted to small talk. Such wisdom!

After that, the thought of suicide became off limits to me, in any serious sense. Sure, I went through a punk phase where I wrote “suicide” on my jacket, but that was just rebel flexing, if you get my meaning. Making decisions that cannot be recalled, are very scary, and usually stupid!

I hope that sharing my father’s words will help someone!

Mistake not that I don’t have my own take. This is far from over! So now I will speak my thoughts about this subject.

1. For all the religious,

what does your faith believe about suicide?

Most religions speak loudly against it, and a majority claim that it is a damnable sin. This means, you will go to hell!

Other religions state that it is an obstacle to enlightenment, which is about the same as the previous, except there is no penalty, only loss.

There obviously are exceptions to my statements, but these can be clearly seen as a political movements adoption, adaption of a religion. I will mention no names!

That’s all I will flex from religion!

What’s really important to remember, is that

2. You,

will only exist, as you are now, in one time and space. I am not refuting reincarnation, just that you will never be

here again! As you are.

When you die, you are gone. No more to feel the sufferings of life, but equally unable to feel the relief.

3. What I find way more important,

is that I know that every being has a place in the “Great Scheme Of Things”, though I really could care less how they play it! I do hate to see anyone cheated, screwed, and lost to themselves.

4. I see reports on the state of humanity, and our planet, everyday. Seriously, I study this shit!

Every day, lives go down the crapper for various reasons, and so many of these souls are crying for

“One More Day!”

Just one more chance to perceive, and be a part of this phenomenal world,

“One More Day!”

To be with family, to work on a trade, to find oneself, or to be alone. “Please God,

Give Me One More Day!”

So you are truly tired of life? You just want it to end? You want to suck the barrel of a shotgun?

Not sure what more needs to be said.

I would recommend that if this is really how you feel, that you spend your life in the service of others. That way, you will be ending yourself, but in a good way. You could make a difference to those who do love life, and want more. Maybe your calling is here.

5. Are You Sure That Ending Your life Is A Good Idea?

See, no matter how wise or stupid you are, someone will follow your lead! Would you advocate this path? Would you tell your kids, “don’t worry if life gets tough, if it does, just kill yourself.”

6. Now, on to the deep stuff!

unconvinced, want it all to end!

Once again, I must remind you,

that this life is your one chance to claim your space. You have a mission to accomplish, and a world to build! Who for, you may ask? For you! You were brought here, possibly without choice! Building your kingdom probably involves getting the most out of this world you were brought into. You may not like where you are, and if so, how great would be your joy to change that!

I am convinced that this is a world built for warriors!

To me, failure to arise to the occasion is repugnant, if it is self made. Death will find us all soon enough, but we have work to do, and an immortality to achieve!

There is no room for losers in this world, but only you, can make yourself one! To die in your service is to achieve your island, your point in time, and a kingdom of your very own! So you have to have enough guts to keep going for as long as you can. It could be a very long ride, but well worth it. You, are all you will ever have.

Almost a year ago, I had an MRI of my brain. See, as with all, aging causes health problems, and my doctor recommended I get one. This was the most enlightening thing that ever happened to me. You might need to experience it to get it, I don’t know. I will try to tell you what happened to me that day.

The procedure was drummed up to seem quite scary. My doctor prescribed a valium to prevent possible panic. I was inserted into a “metal cave”, and heard crazy techno music blasting into me. Scary? Only a little bit. It was mainly fun! After getting out of the chamber, I saw the technicians processing the data on my brain. The coolest part was that I saw my brain live, and fell in love!

From that image, I saw what I really was. Funny to think about or say, but seeing the real me released me of the need for anyone else! That doesn’t mean that I don’t enjoy social gatherings, making love, or the communion with family and friends. It’s like I know now who really loves me, and I love them too. They are such a wonder, and miracle beyond measure. They are me!

I encourage you to find yourself,

the rewards are great!

Your choices are, and well they should, be yours, and yours alone! I don’t report people with suicidal thoughts. If you want to die, go for it! Please make your decision consciously!

As for me,

I love this world, and all her good, and all her evil, because I love myself, and I am of her.

Love and blessings to all!

Is Digital Painting Killing Art? : My thoughts

I saw this question on Quora, “Is digital painting killing art?” I have quite strong feelings to this question, because I have lived in the art world all my life, and generally have loved it. One thing I really hate about it though, is the arrogance and bigotry that seem to follow most artists, and their movements. Many beloved artists have shown their share of ignorance when it comes to defining what art is. This is a shame! I wish my profession was free from the back stabbing, ankle biting ways of other trades, but it is not!

What do most artists argue about? Technique!

“Her technique is inferior to mine”, “his art is wrongly motivated”, “he just copies and pastes”, “oil painting is an anachronism”, “watercolor is for kids”, “acrylic is an inferior medium”, and the list of crying just goes on!

Wah, wah, wah! Are we talking art or mush?

All art mediums are just that, a mode to accomplish art. Each have their sets of advantages and drawbacks. There is not a one, in past, present, or future, which is superior, or inferior. Art technique, is simply the way an artist chooses to represent their art!

Digital art is no exception. It does not give anyone the ability to produce better art, nor does it lessen the accomplishments of a master. All it does is covers space in an artist’s vision. How that space is covered is the only concern.

So, in digital art, we can capture an image, and merge it with another. Is the same not true for collage, or photo montage? I strongly believe that digital art is capable of fulfilling the dreams of painters such as Salvador Dali, and many other surrealists, myself included!

There are drawbacks!

One good example is that the images in digital art are formed by pixels, and not solid sheets of color. Therefore, enlarging the image beyond a certain point reveals that it is composed of many little squares of color. Not always a bad thing, though it could present problems for some. Another potential problem is that since digital art is not physical, artists would be wise to create a number of backups, to insure the safety of their work.

Furthermore, much of the art world is still a little backward. Artists used to rely on art dealers to market them, much as musicians are marketed by record labels. Many art dealers would prefer to work with expensive physical property, so digital artists might do best to market themselves, or hire a website manager.

This being what it is,

I still strongly believe that digital offers a great future to artists who enjoy presenting their work in cyberspace. The tools are out there to produce quality art equal to the talent of the artist.

there are definite advantages!

1. Ever heard the term starving artist? It is very hard to make good money being an artist. Using physical media, one very expensive piece must be sold at a time, ad someone has to both want, and be able to afford it. This greatly narrows one’s clientele. Digital art may be sold as downloads, so one piece of art can be sold over and over. This opens an opportunity for an artist to pocket a steady income, if they have talent. Sure, downloads are cheap, but in quantity, they add up! I will venture to say that a good artist could make more money on one piece using digital, than a traditional master was ever able to! Van Gogh more than likely would have established great success…um…, before he died, if he was willing and able to market his works in cyberspace.

Just telling it like it is!

2. Art is about much more than money! It is “a relationship to life”, “A science and religion”, “A calling from God”, “A conduit for evolution, physical, cultural, emotional and physical”, “A great psychological therapy, without the need for prescription.” To all this and more, I greatly agree.

What I do have problem with,

is that so many dismiss the importance of getting paid for our services, since we really need to! To have a profession is to offer value to others. In order to stay alive long enough to do so, one must get paid! [not too crazy a concept, huh?] I believe the artists of today stand a beautiful chance of being able to communicate their vision to the entire world, at a price that even a rough economy can afford.

By doing so, they may offer value to billions of people, who really need what they have to offer, but until now, could not afford it! This is a win/win for all. The catch is, artists will have to evolve along with the rest of the world, or have problems. We already do, so what’s to lose? :]:]:]

3. Paints take time to dry, and eventually deteriorate. True statement. Digital is dry immediately, and a finished work will remain as long as the device it is housed in. Say you put your art on a flash drive several times. Unless all copies are destroyed, your work will remain alive, untainted, and potentially viral! Ain’t that great news?!!!

My father, Saant Celia, definitely one of the greatest artists who ever lived, painted in oil. He was very concerned over atmospheric conditions, such as extreme humidity, heat or cold. These could ruin what he spent months to build! I see some of his work today, and it brings tears to my eyes to see it has changed somewhat, due to age. Everything changes, that’s fct, but digital stands a good chance of lasting a very long time, at least as long as cave art. Drives and cd’s will likely be able to be read hundreds of years from now, and be converted to the latest technology, as time demands. Just a thought.

4. One of my favorite perts concerning digital art, is that it opens my sphere of communication to anywhere the internet can. Right now this means Planet Earth. I have so much to say, and so little time to do so. It’s wise to embrace what extends your life!


digital art is not for everyone, and that’s fine. It does offer some great advantages to artists.

All I really ask is that those who wish to judge an art form become well acquainted with it, before they speak a word. It is common of humans to abuse what they don’t understand and therefore dismiss what discomforts them. We artists are not common people. Accept all and think for yourself!

Artist At The Edge Of Magic

Greetings All!

My last post was very short, while this one may be quite long. I hope you enjoy, and get something from it. You will see a lot of my latest art here. Remember I said I needed to take a break and refresh. This is what it has come to…

Election Day!, Save our country!, “Bad Hurricane, how dare you cost me $90!,

“You want to save our world? Better give me some money, before it’s too late!” By the way, we have the best spaceship to Heaven, and we are offering it for the very low price of $5000,000,000, but we have payment plans available. Don’t let our bad economy stop you from getting it all!

Well, it’s really not we, only me. Hey, make your payments available to


and God willing, Heaven will be yours! :]:]:]

After an unholy butt load of that crap, and seeing that I really have something to say, I retired to my art for inspiration. Unholy summer of un stained panties and swimwear! There is so much more than something to say. I’ve got some things to show. Yes, I have more than one:]:]:]access-and-transcend

So I’m drawing the “Ice Curtains” to politicians right now, this is about me!ice-curtains

I am an artist

to qualify, I am an artist

At the edge of magic!artist-at-the-edge-of-magick

My physical form changes constantly, such as life and reality…

I am not at liberty to play games on you, though I would love to play them with you. Consider me as The Green Man In  contemplation. My world is new, and I’m hoping that your world is too. Otherwise, sail off…the-green-man-in-contemplation

I invoke the power of a great lantern to light my way. Together forming this lantern, we are a god/goddess. We become the holiest of holy, by transformation into the unholy.lucifer

By this I mean, facing reality. There is nothing in this world that can help us get our lives straight, unless it is ourselves! The Gods and Goddesses are merely icons, until we incarnate them! Get it?baphomet-rising

Without pseudo reasoning for a mentor, our focus often turns to “Death.” Are we really not fearing an ending for a greatness not begun? Where was I when I needed help? I’m hoping to instigate answers to these questions.deaths-head-moth

The universe has bestowed us with gifts such as love, which in reality is an embracing of self, and lust, which keeps it all moving. Furthermore, we have everyday life as a reality check. Going back to love, embracing self is embracing all. Just think about it! We are beginning a journey. Hope we are all together.Tantric Reformation

Regardless of style, art is a science of symbolism. It has been used from primordial times and up to the present, to concentrate bands of perception into usable and potent aggregates.point-of-no-return

In a well done painting, the awareness of a million years is condensed, and reincarnated in the present moment! We can see this in every art revolution that’s ever existed. Test this yourself. Observe and contemplate the art of different periods of history. Within each, the unchanging element can be found, and more! The art of every civilization and time period provides a window to that place, both in what it shows, and what it does not.The Weave

My point is that art is the most potent of all magickal tools, as well as the prime tool for social evolution and communication. Tarot decks are perfect examples of all I have inferred, yet it gets so much deeper! Art controls society completely!

The blowout of self-sodomy
The blowout of self-sodomy

You want to buy a home. Where will you wish to live, and what style of house would you wish to live in? Did you determine all you needed to from personal experience? You want to join a religion, list the motivators. The list could go forever, but doesn’t need to. Symbolism creates reality! Artists are architects of symbolism.

The undefined spaced in control
The undefined spaced in control

There are days when it may get difficult to understand these things. It probably would be better to say, that when things get rough, it becomes somewhat difficult to identify with the greatness of “true being”, and our purpose in this amazing continuum. It’s really just our ego’s feeling hurt, but these things will pass in the wake of transpersonal glory.

Every year, and every day of my life, the evidence builds!

I take a humble kind of pride in the knowing that everything is The Great Continuum, and I am doing my part. This Divine Fractal  expands and contracts in sensuous waves within the peaceful stillness of eternity. Jellyfish wisdom?

I have always loved and admired jellyfish. They are so beautiful and delicate. I see them as organic fractals, or individual “bing-bangs” pulsing with the tide. In spite of their great vunerability, the jellyfish is still one of the most successful species on earth, and probably have a great future! Why?

For one, they can be deadly predators without a passion for hate. Even if the jellyfish had a high IQ, I doubt it would make much trouble for anyone who left it alone. It likes to eat, and will consume whatever it can.

Secondly, jellyfish are highly adaptable to most any environment. Pollution may actually aid their success, by creating an environment rich in organic matter and a multitude of protein rich organisms. Wouldn’t it be cool if we could do that?

When a jellyfish washes up on a beach, or gets plowed by a passing boat, the other jellyfish don’t get depressed and whine about the futility of life. They eat, reproduce and die, like everything else, but do so without huge psychological problems. This is another reason they find it so easy to succeed.

In this lowly organism, the meaning of life is completely established, at least for now. Within their physical appearance, and their very nature, profound wisdom abides!

Now, about the “Great Intellectual Jellyfish”…

Several months ago, I had a MRI. Though I was prohibited from photographing my brain, I got to see it, and absolutely fell in love! For the first time, I saw the real me. It was a delicate creature, composed mainly of cholesterol, bathed in an inner ocean housed in a flesh machine. I was, and still am, in complete awe! This creature designed my life. It determined how long my hair should be, what I would eat, drink, or smoke, how I would react to whatever it’s decisions were. It decides how much of it’s awareness it should share with me, and in reality, what my life will be about.

This is the really cool part…

For that moment, I was in complete communion with myself. I could see my brain, looking back at me, and it was able to see it’s creation. It was also able to tell the deep love I had for it. From an MRI, I learned true self love! Get one if you can! They are very expensive, but of all the personal development tools I’ve tried, it was the best so far. By the way, if you do get one, and want the pic, you probably should click your cellphone without asking! I did, and they told me no. [they kinda suck!] Partially joking, as I know they have their rules to protect their business, and that should get some respect. Never the less, this is me, and they should feel the sting of a thousand nettles for holding such a personal picture from me. I still plan to get it!

So in this post, I am sharing with you my most recent art, and the inspiration behind it. Soon I will return to my social and political engagements, as there is a lot to be addressed! As of now, please contemplate the beauty and power of art, and employ it in your life as you see fit.under-the-bridge

 Hope all had a happy Halloween. Autumn blessings to you!autumn-fire


So Great To Be Back!

To all who view my site, I’m sure you’ve noticed that lately I’ve posted very little. This is because I needed some time to rediscover me, and the crazy wonderful world that inspires my posts! Election day is coming soon, and the closer it comes to being here, the less I wish to speak about politics.

This is a site for art, and artistic expression.

I have shared with all of you, my views on politics, and so for now,

It’s time to move to bigger and better things.

All the same, please don’t forget to vote! In this new world, ideas matter more than ever! Voting in my opinion, is less about the candidates than it is what they have to offer you. Please keep this in mind! Let me give you a silly example:

You read “The Philosophy Of Joe Schmow.” Finding it greatly inspiring, you followed his posts and political campaigns, etc. Later, your enthusiasm is dashed against rocks, as you hear that Joe is a complete fraud! Joe is a liar! Joe is a money hungry nutcase! Joe is really Jane:] the list goes on… Now Joe is campaigning for the very things you wish for yourself and your country. Ask yourself if Joe can prevail. Will he? Invest in your future. The faces are just icons. Support the visions closest to your own, and afterward, do your part to bring them to physical reality!

In future posts, I plan to continue with the themes of art and magic. I plan to offer ideas concerning mind expansion, consciousness extension, life extension, personal development, and much more!

I would love your input here. What are your dreams and concerns? What is your vision of the future? Look deep into that eye looking into your deepest being. What is there to say?

Until next time,

Love, Love under will.

The Self Centered Vision For A Free Life

We frequently question what life is all about, while sadly ignoring ourselves and our personal reality. This is why we tend to feel so trapped and used. We seek the external world, and have done a good job of finding it. What has happened is that we have discovered a way to “make the car drive us, instead of us driving the car”. The result of this folly is that although very busy, and apparently engaged in life, we are just running around unconscious.

While in this state of mind, we are dominated by our external circumstances, and our primal drives. This puts us in a bad place for addressing the needs of the future. Our ability to develop new perspectives is greatly compromised. We are living in a dream which evolved thousands of years ago, and whose time has passed. Although it was highly effective for establishing order, and keeping the human species from extinction, the game has changed. It’s time for something new.

Over the world, population is rising out of control. We are running out of food and land to support this increasing population. Despite this global emergency, our teens are adhering faithfully to their instinct to replicate at all cost. They are out of control. The reason for this is that creating children is still one of our leading focuses in life. Lead by antiquated drives, we are securing the basis for our much feared extinction.

Why are we not coming up with educational programs designed to instill a sense of self value in our youth? Why are we not trying harder to create a state of selfishness in our young, that might lead them to building themselves instead of replicating. When will we call for a generation to offer quality over quantity?

Oh, perhaps I can explain:]

Maybe it is because we live under a divine law, “Be fruitful and multiply.”

I would love to hear a comment from the author of this command that would explain how we should do so, and feed these offspring now that their numbers are greater than our recourses to care for them? What’s even worse is that we are doing very little to develop the recourses needed to even try to satisfy this great task. Every second, babies are born, cigars are passed, a forest dies, a debt increases, and life goes on!

For how long?

I’m not sure!

How long can we extend a welfare program to an increasing population fighting for a limited job demand? How long before our natural recourses are depleted by our “out of control species?” Where will we go when we run out of standing space? Someone tell me!

The thing is, that is only a small part of what I want to talk about. My concern here is a long term solution to the problem, or should I more fairly say… Disbalance!

These days, many folks are throwing out potential solutions, especially since we are so close to election time! I believe I have a long term solution to this problem, and I’m giving it for free, even though I’m running for no office.

Take it or leave it, the intelligent have nothing to lose by trying it on! The movement began over two hundred years ago, though it’s only started to catch. The primary goal is to teach to the living of all ages that their life and purpose are of greatest importance, and so it’s cultivation is one’s only true consideration.

By refining your life from a chunk of coal, into a diamond, you will be doing much better than if you created huge amounts of coal. If you refine yourself into one capable of finding solutions, you will have achieved more than ten generations only able to repeat a pattern! If you solve your problems with dependence, your wisdom may end a need for welfare. Should you take the time to love yourself, you will never need another for self validation. You will be a miracle you rejoice in!

Now for many, extreme debt, screaming babies, job concerns, social obligations and more, will prevent the necessary evolution to enter this brave new world. Many will be afraid, or feel their urges are morally wrong.

It is much easier to comply than to really evaluate and create. These days, compliance will solve no problem, as the authorities know less than the common masses they used to dominate!

Every age comes with it’s mottos and laws. I wish to state of the two which have yet to be fulfilled, and very likely, will address the questions of our day.

I paraphrase both of these… Think you’ll get the point.

On his death bed, Buddha responded to the question on which precept was most important. He responded, “be a lamp unto yourself.” In like condition, Aleister Crowley announced, “Do what thy wilst will be the whole of the law, love under will.”

Should one not understand the language of those days, it would appear a riddle or nonsense delivered by both.  Looking closer, it can be seen that they both are delivering the same ultimate command. See, to do what you will is not the same as doing anything you want, it implies introspection, strategy and practice. It directly demands that one ” be a lamp unto themselves.”

It involves changing the scenario from being one looking outward to the world, to a world looking inward toward you. It puts full authority in your hands, while removing excuses for failure. When you know who you are, there is no failure.

I hope to inspire a generation of people

1. To question the ethics of their past

2. To live for themselves and forsake all others!

3. To consider pleasures of the flesh as beautiful rituals between lovers, and not just a tool of procreation.

4.Indulge fully in the pleasures of self and flesh, yet leave nothing to be unintentionally carried over.

5. To see the world as their ultimate lover, and protect her from all threats, even ourselves!

6. To bring life into the world when more is needed, and refrain from doing so when it is not.

7. In all cases and matters, be the change you want to see.

8. Follow your bliss!

The big day is coming up… Election day! I encourage everyone to get out and vote! Just do it! Do your best to show your candidate what you need!

Now, a special message to our candidates:

I’ve heard what you are saying, and have varying views to both of you. I would love to believe that you both really love and wish to serve your nation. If this is the case, please drop the campaigning, get together in private, and come up with a good plan for your country! Both of you, together, could do something really incredible! Will you, or just take care of business as usual? I think you both have it in you to bring about great things!

a special message to anyone reading this:


Population Control And The American Dream

As an introduction to this post, I want to offer a dictionary definition of “The American Dream”. It is a beautiful one, and most accurate! I found this definition while doing some late night book browsing. I hope it reaches you as it did me.

“The American Dream is the ideal that every United States citizen should have an equal opportunity to achieve success and prosperity through hard work, determination, and initiative.”

So true! What I really love about this definition is two-fold. First, it clarifies that the dream is really that there can be a place and government where hard work and initiative pay off. Secondly, that in this place, we have an equal opportunity to make our dreams come true, if we are willing to work for them!

Sadly, these days,

“Work” is a four letter word!

Yes, it is a four letter word, but far from a bad one. Work is simply the way things get accomplished. Accomplishment is good… Right? Here is another most wonderful definition by James Truslow Adams, the writer and historian who coined the concept.

“The American Dream is that dream of a land in which life should be better and richer and fuller for everyone, with opportunity for each according to ability or achievement.”

I recommend that everyone create a plaque with these words on it to view in a special place in their homes.  If they did so, perhaps they would approach their dreams with more reverence, and a realistic world outlook. I fear that as of now, we are breeding a new race of lazy, hopeless, and stupid beings who believe that their lives and country are worthless, and therefore exist only to satisfy their empty whims.

I hate to say it but it’s so obvious, that a great percentage of the U.S. population hate working for anything at all, and consider their country at best to be the evolution of their mom’s tits. If this outlook is catching, we are, as a nation, doomed! If I offend anyone, I’m not sorry. I love my country because I took the time to research and explore the dreams of those who handed this great nation down to us. They did not intend for our country to be a huge daycare unit for the mentally impaired. They were women and men who lived through extremely hard times, and wished for everyone a chance to be able to work hard to make their dreams become reality.

There are many places where one may work hard all day long, and still come home with little or nothing to eat. Many prosper in lands like these, they are the elite! The blood, sweat and tears of the common man put dinner on their plates. These disposable masses live in anger and resentment sometimes, but usually have to accept their place as pawns, or become outlaws.

In the United States, it is amazing how spoiled many of us are, yet more resentful and lifeless than a starvation victim in a third world country! Something is going awfully wrong!!!

It is a blessing that should you lose your job, you probably can collect unemployment. It is a blessing that if you become disabled, or were born that way, there are programs to assist your survival. I see these as beautiful gifts from good, hard working people who didn’t want to see others fail due to tragedy or dis opportunity. I support these programs, because I know that bad things can happen to anyone, good people are not exempt. If one day I find that I can no longer work, I will be most thankful for public assistance.  but

It enrages me to see a huge number of people on welfare campaigning against our country, and throwing up gang signs, when most of them would starve to death if they were living anywhere else, because they are lazy, depressed, devoid of dreams, and are just fine with that. Eventually, they will sink into the abyss of a hell they created for themselves, and most will wish they were never born.

This brings me to the main point of my post!

Our biggest problems come from a far and distant world. This place has long passed, but our genetics have not caught up yet. We still have “Hunter/Gathers” in our society. These people oddly, are gaining new ground due to our charity, but their place in evolution has been filled. On another level, but just as bad, if not worse, are those who live their entire lives, just for their children. They hope for them, a better life, and transmit their sickness to them, so they will do the same!

These people may seem kind on the surface, but careful observation reveals them as “lost souls”, who attempt to live the lives they wanted, through their children. Of course, this never happens, they die bitter, and their children usually repeat the cycle. So what happened to “The American Dream”?

It is not dead,

it just has of yet to reach the masses!

Think about this…

We are cranking out babies at an ungodly rate, before we create ourselves, and our personal mission statement. When we decide to become adults before we are, this will happen. Sometimes I really can’t blame the “Welfare Nation” for existing, because it was so enabled. We have kids cranking out more kids, yet there are very few guidelines for these kids to live by.

When one really understands the concept of “The American Dream”, they will most likely find it unavoidable to start working on some project they see as very important. It will overtake their apathy, and they will protect their ideas from failure.

How will they protect their ideas from failure? They will work hard. They will develop passion for their own lives, and think twice about procreating before, and if ever, this challenge will further their cause. They will get it together” before they pass their genetics. They will understand that their lives, their future, and reason for being, are theirs alone. So solitude will be relished as an opportunity for personal growth.

Remember the dreams you had as a child, the great things you planned to do to prosper and make your world a better place? Make these your children before you decide to make babies. Bringing another into an aimless world is sentencing them to suffering, and uncertain hells. Would you wish this for your kids? Procreate yourself, before others.

The wilderness and oceans are the lungs of the world. Everyday, we are polluting the seas, and destroying the forests to make more homes for our babies. When we run out of these resources, we will all die! We are now scared of eating healthy fish, such as salmon, mackerel, and tuna, because we have poisoned our world with mercury. We are running off cattle ranchers for new developments to house our growing population. The price of beef and dairy is skyrocketing!

So tell me, when is a better time to get our priorities right than now? The old school rednecks advice” not to breed, what you can’t feed”, is actually great wisdom. It is time for those in the world who want a future, to build one for themselves, and just enjoy it!

In summary

1. Love your world! Thank it for the gift of identity by contributing to it’s evolution, which begins with you.

2. Avoid sexual partners whose aim is to have babies. If they are not about their own dreams, and supportive of yours, move on.

3. Do not rely on any form of welfare unless you honesty have to. Save it for those who do. Become a conduit for prosperity by creating dreams, and destroying inadequacy. Create prosperity in your own special way!

4. Understand that your life is the most important aspect of your reality, and work constantly to build it. Be selfish! You will help others  more in this way than if you gave charity to them. You will also be much more likely to find fulfillment and happiness.

No Outflowings

In practice, it is wise to encourage inflowings over outflowings. These are terms of perceptions. To simplify, in ordinary life, we perceive something, and generate many thoughts about it. This is important to the daily functions of an individual. In practice, we must reverse this scenario in order to invoke the powers that support change and transformation.

Let’s consider the word “invoke.” In Voke. This being the opposite of Out Voke. Cite or appeal to [someone or something] as an authority for action or in support of an argument. This is the Google definition of invoke. Can you see the truth of this definition? It infers using your power to delegate authority to another. Right? Very right!

In magic and art, we strive to create a flow as to bring awareness to it’s highest place. Personally, our minds are filled with great power, but the awareness we seek flows down. Therefore, outflowings cannot normally reach the places of higher awareness. When sorcerers state that a certain magic can only teach you what you really already know, but forgot, this is what they mean.

Inflowings are different. They come from somewhere outside of us, obviously and just by definition! In this way, the higher descends into the lower. Previously invisible awareness becomes our own. Therefore, when we have outflowings, they will be greatly advanced from those we have had before. We may even seem like new beings, and this may not be far from the truth, as new awareness has filled the vessels that we are.

According to a definition of “old sorcerers”, we are containers of awareness, gourds for gathering energy. What our individuality is, is only the skin of the gourd. Inside is empty, but constantly being filled. Wow I love those guys! They got the idea before the bicycle was invented! Please allow me to refer to us as containers, or gourds:]

Look deep inside yourself, and perceive your emptiness. Tell us if you can what remains when conditions change. Invite The Illuminator into your life, and beckon to be searched deep inside. Pease tell us what you find:]

We can look at universal consciousness as both legion and unity. There is definitely an infinite interplay between multiple consciousnesses, which unify into nations that we can call an individual. Now, try to pin down the essential nature of the individual. If you remove just one part, will the individual remain as previously defined? No, they will transform into someone/something else.

Have you ever seen a person who has had a stroke, or other trauma, resulting in specific brain damage? It is sad, scary, yet very interesting. See, our brain is the radio and recording device for consciousness to be transmitted to. We are programmed from birth and until our death, by something undefinable. By this force, forms are recorded and replayed constantly, by the manner that they were delivered. When something in this recording is broken, consciousness within that area is modified or deleted. The result is that the person becomes someone else, from who they used to be. Although these transformations are often for the worse, they are not always. Once in a while, one is improved by brain damage!

What I am getting at, is that individuality is the result of unified inflowings. What are inflowings, and where do they come from? It is undefinable, but we could label it as “The Great Spirit”, God, The Goddess. All these would be correct, but only if they are understood as labels. All that we can really comprehend fully, is that this flow exists in everything, and everything is this flow. So we should know that…

1. Our personal identity is a precious gift, and a miracle!

2. That what we call personal identity is a container of sorts, which holds specific aspects of the undefinable flow.

3. That in death, all that is lost is the container, but what made it possible to begin with, will never die!

4. Outflowings are the result of personal identity, and our interpretations of our inflowings. So our outflowings will become inflowings somewhere, but they never will be truth for us, as we invented them, and we do not know!

Let me suggest a program called “No More Outflowings.” It is simply zen meditation, performed to a certain extreme.

Let yourself surrender to not knowing. Hey, you really don’t have a choice. Right? Now just sit, and watch for thoughts, especially conversations and explanations. You will find them, just drop them, again and again. Invoke the rising tide of the nourishing and eternal darkness. This is the “Lamp Of The Hermit.” When a color flashes, view it but let it go. Take no phenomena seriously. React to it only if need be, but in any case, release it. Return to the peace of “Eternal Void.” This is where all the phenomena come from, and return to. Decide that you will return to it too. You will, like it or not. The cool part is that when inside the flow, nothing is wrong, and everything is happy.

What more can we ask for? We can experience this for the rest of our lives!we should seek to create places devoted to meditation, and find friends to practice with. We can definitely help each other, especially when we hit the transpersonal levels. Discussions are good, among friends. We can talk to each other about our experiences, and offer solutions to keep those inflowings coming!

Please set at least a month of meditation practice, in which you will abstain from outflowings. Seek inflowings, but offer no definitions to yourself or others. At the end of that period, document results if you wish, or just continue.

Seek no consultation during this period with gods and goddesses, just invoke the darkness. What is being sought right now is ultimate purity, after that, the choice is yours! Just let it all stop, and bask in the stillness.

Let us begin now!

Trapped In A Dream

Most of you, who have read my posts before, know that I’m an avid practitioner of lucid dreaming. Recently, I had a dream that enables me to share two very important concepts of consciousness. The first is the term “Twin Positions”, the name given to a dreaming technique by Carlos Castaneda, and/or, his teachers.

To practice “Twin Positions”, first you imagine or conjure a dream bed. To do this, enter a lucid dream, and decide to go to sleep there. Locate Your home, temple, or whatever, lay in your bed there, and go to sleep. You will wake up in another dream, which, if not lucid, should be turned so. [ Just become aware that you are dreaming]. Now, you will remain in the dream until you wake up twice! Shamans use this technique to prevent themselves from waking before their work is done. One can easily expand how many dream beds they have, and how many times they will need to wake up before leaving the dream!

Remember I said I would share some advanced techniques in later posts? This is a big one! It is not to be tried by beginners, though all may benefit from reading. You have the potential here, to never leave the dream again! That is, as long as you exist. Dreaming can elongate life, but as of yet, no one as I know of has escaped the Reaper.

It has been stated that in this state, you may change shapes at will. This is true! In this state, you may become anything that captivates your mind, as it is lost, though this can be a good thing. You may transform your state of being instantly, into one you prefer, because in this world, the past does not have to matter. In this world, anyone can find empowerment!

Some shamans attempted doing a complete circle here, but if they succeeded, I don’t know about it. They hoped to attain immortality by entering the dream, never coming out, yet visiting the start. Great idea! I’m not convinced, as of yet, that it can work. If it does, it means losing some human privilges. Once again, I guess it is up to you to decide.

 Through “Twin Positions”, you can transform anything I know of. Most likely anything you know.

All that I have been talking about so far, was merely an introduction for this post:

Trapped In A Dream

 Twin Positions is a conscious way to trap oneself in a dream. It is a useful tool for those interested in mind exploration, magick, and the neuro conscious frontier. There is another way to be trapped in a dream, and most, if not all of us are! This is not such good news. Being trapped in a dream, and out of control won’t make you a better person. It won’t teach you anything about who you really are. At best, it can teach you a thing or two about your teachers. The dream we are trapped in, began with our birth, and our conditioning ever since.

“The Matrix”, is a terrific movie. If you haven’t watched it, please do! I mean the first movie really. the sequel, not so much. In a science fiction sort of way, this movie displays in dramatic detail, all that this post is about!

Since birth, we all have been told what life and reality are about. Little of this program was ever taken from direct reality. We are programmed with belief and social systems so impeccably that we don’t see reality, we only see what we were told it is. What this does, is make it easier for you to exist in a society of like pawns. What is even weirder, is that due to the magical nature of our minds, even the failures of your teachers to implant their vision in your mind only serves to cause you to falter, stumble a bit, and re enter the program. This time you return with shattered, or weakened faith in true reality.

Let’s take a trip down “Memory Lane”. It’s such a deceptive and dangerous place, yet here, if you study it, you will find the cracks in your programming! Simply remember something you were told, and hold it up to the light of reality. Try this with your personal beliefs, and see just how many of them reveal themselves as lies in the face of the truth. I recommend making a personal journal of all your recalled life memories, and beliefs. How many of these make sense when compared with a look out your door?

If you don’t believe me, try it with just two beliefs, and memories. If one of these holds false, you can bet you have been deceived. Should two or more do so, you’ve been completely duped! No hard feelings, most of these lies were put on you by people who really love you, but were infected with this program, and so installed their hopes and fears into you, hoping that they would help you be a more successful human being. Their only crime was being wrong.

Let’s start with Santa Claus! Millions, if not billions of people, have lied to their children in a truly miserable manner. It really hurt my feelings that my parents lied to me in this way. So we get older, and folks scoff at our anger. “Get over it, they were just having fun!” Really? At my trust and expense? What were they thinking? Don’t blame them, because they were programmed themselves. They wanted you to have a truly miraculous event in your life, since they couldn’t have one themselves. The problem is, they can’t sustain it, just like any other lie.

Now you are older, and due to a few of these well intended fabrications, you can no longer believe in your parents. You understand the situation, and may love them, but just can’t take them seriously anymore. See how the program so wisely breaks up the truth? You were sold on a false god, and now your parents disappear! Actually, you were probably sold on a lot of false gods.

Millions of people speak on the nature of God, either for profit, or out of their own rendition of reality. How many of these, I wonder, have met God? Maybe a few. These are not the people you hear about though. They are not trying to impress anyone, or spread the good word, but rather making a decision to live their lives in total reality. Am I? Are You?

“The path to paradise is a long, long way. Want to get there? Better leave today!”

Please drop your false beliefs in everything, but find the truth in your teachers. I told my kids, the truest truth I know. “I wanted you to be here, even if at times it seemed I didn’t. You were not a “mistake”, your mother and I intended you. I am delighted to see you, as I am another day”. I am grateful that I can truly say this! Some parents can’t, though the truth is always better than a lie. When you respect another enough to tell the truth, at least you are real, and not just another part of the program.

“Keep it real”, I add into “The law”. Reality is way more amazing than fantasy. Remember as well, that reality is the only place to go for a great steak. Something died for that steak, so eat it in bliss, as not to desecrate what in reality, is keeping you alive! If you are vegan, same thing. Something died for that tempeh or tofu, so eat it with bliss, as not to desecrate in reality, what is keeping you alive!

So what is gained by leaving the program? The first big gain is that we no longer have to rely on fear to get moving. Reality will light the way! We need cry no more sacred names, unless we wish. The secret name of God is secret:] Really, it is of no matter. Reality does not ask for passwords.

Does reality intervene? You bet it does!

Yesterday a tropical storm passed through the Wilmington area. It dumped massive amounts of rain all night long. The ground had no choice but to get wet. I had a choice to make. I could stay inside, or go out and be soaked. I chose to stay in and focus on indoor projects. This is a perfect example of how external reality and free will work together. The directions that consciousness are allowed to evolve within are determined by the structures and motions of this mystical force we call reality. We in turn, become an extension of reality, as our dreams are extensions of our minds.

Stating this may or may not clarify anything for anyone. I hope it does. It really doesn’t even need to be stated though. It will remain with or without any approval. Let’s open our eyes and let in some fresh life. Let’s watch what is going on outside of our heads for awhile. The microcosms will open up and update once our focus changes.

Dreams are great things, and very powerful tools as well. They define our personal reality as form and life define universal reality. It would be wise though, not to “put the cart before the horse” as we explore the inner and outer realms. Dreams can teach us a lot, but they can’t show us anything that we have not already seen. They can only take us to places we know how to reach. Let’s flow along with our dreams, but not become trapped by them.

It’s Alright: A meditation On Universal Design

Some days ago, a friend texted me about her concerns and observations about climate change. She said she noticed strange weather patterns in the Wilmington area, which in previous years, she has never encountered.

Yesterday, I received another text from a friend noting unusual fog in our area. the concern being that the land is cooler than the sea. Over the years, I have noted many accounts of rising sea levels, and the threat of global warming to wipe out the coast!

I’ve done my own research, and yes, over the years, the ocean is rising. Not by much though. I put a polyurethane treated ruler into Burnt Mill Creek, a tidal creek running into the Cape Fear River, back in 1986, and checking it last week, high tides are only two feet deeper, at most. So yes, something is happening, but much of the hype is hysteria.

In other parts of the world, the situation may be becoming a lot worse! I know that even two feet could matter much more in certain locations than others, for sure. What I’m wondering about is two fold. First, why has no one decided to react to this information earlier? Second, is there not a chance that these changes could solve some of our problems?


Please be honest with yourselves, how long do you see our current approach to life being able to sustain life? Our main approaches to living include laziness, greed, and desire to procreate. I want to address the latter.

Planet Earth is definitely feeding more people than are feeding her. “All is good while supplies last!” How long can they? Why are we having all these kids we will be unable to feed? Why are we not teaching the value of self awareness over that of raising our out of control population? Where are we planning to put our kids, and into what jobs? Listen close and hold your breath, because sometimes the truth stinks!

Unless things change, meaning that we change them, then we are sentencing countless children into a horrible life, with little hope of change. What can we do to prevent this terrible future? I don’t know. That meaning that I don’t know what the world will listen to. Forget the fairy tales, our gig is our responsibility! Note: We are creating killing fields!Prelude To War

Where is our space program right now?

If we continue to populate as we do, where do we plan to put all these people? I’m sorry to say, that questions such as these often plague my mind. I’ll venture to say that I don’t think I’m alone. What is happening is that we feel threatened by change, and so frequently assume the worst!There are two major problems with thinking this way. First, we panic and spread our panic to others. Instead of solving problems, we create more. Secondly, we make ourselves feel absolutely miserable, possibly to the point of severe depression. This robs us of the personal power we need to act constructively, and make change a positive thing!

Most people who really care about the world they live in become activists. This can be a really good thing, or not so good at all, depending on the driving perspective of the activist. Fortunately, most of our activists are change embracing, bold and loving individuals, seeking to relieve suffering and create new opportunity. [ Martin Luther King, Jr, Mother Teresa, The 14th Dali Lama, Mahatma Gandhi, Buddha, Jesus, The Prophet Muhammad, Minnie Evans, Jerry Garcia, John Lennon, Bob Marley and so many others!]

Some activists however, embrace their fears, and because of this, become hate mongers. Their initial concerns could be identical with the enlightened people I mentioned above, but unfortunately, these folks indulged the wrong thoughts. They were lead to panic, and caused others to. Their rise to power was paid for with blood and hysteria! Wrong thoughts will always produce wrong conclusions. Be aware that “I want to make my world a better place”, can be a great thought, or a terrible one, depending on what your next thought is.

I feel sorry for Adolf Hitler. I really do. I know this sounds weird to say, considering the terrible things he is responsible for, yet I do, and here is why. I can tell from his writing, and the feeling he put into sharing many deep and personal thoughts, that he really wanted to create a beautiful world. I think he probably envisioned happy families, brave soldiers, and young children waking to a new and wonderful day. Something went wrong though, and he let it! His rise to power was paved in fear, feelings of inadequacy, and paranoia. I’m not being a ” bleeding heart here”, any good psychologist would evaluate him in similar ways. He chose fear as his co-pilot, and so hate became his god. As always, hate destroys all, even it’s prophets!

Adolf could have really conquered the world. [Not the way he intended though] With his ability to move a crowd, his charisma, and his ability to make successful changes quickly, he could have made Germany a super power, not to be feared, but idolized. He could have boosted the economy for the whole world, by causing all nations to await his next expedient decision. Commissioning the design for the Volkswagon, was such an idea. It was a great idea! The world needs energy efficient transportation, both then and now. He was big on environmental conservation, and could have taught us a few things. He could have left this world a beloved man, and a teutonic saint. Instead, he created a living nightmare for the entire Earth. We have as of yet to fully recover! His payment for all his efforts came down to taking a bullet in the mouth by his own hand.

It could have been so different!

This is what I hope to confer to everyone, especially all activists, world wide. At the beginning of this post ,I  threw some pretty hard stuff out there.  hoped that you would become engaged, worried, hateful to someone/something else, and hopefully me! Why? I really needed to show what a dangerous perspective to life looks like. I’ve had many of them. There is no shame in this. I didn’t let my enemies change who I am! I viewed my concerns, yet chose not to panic. They were just thoughts anyway.

In closing

I wish to deliver the true message of this post! This is what I’ve observed about ultimate reality.

It’s Alright! All of the experiences we are having are just waves of reality touching our personal nature. We are experiencing the Big Mind thinking and evolving. Reality will be here long after we are gone, but it will never exclude us. We all are steps on an infinite stairway, leading to higher worlds. It is up to us to choose what kind of step we want to be. True practice is 100% subjective. Someone/thing will do the job,  do you wish to do it?

On this great stairway, there will be prophets, saints, business people, vagabonds, hustlers, homeless people, buddhas, drug addicts, hate mongers, politicians, preachers, house wives and husbands, killers and healers, doctors and pornographers, plus everything  else. What do you wish to be. Be that!

One day, I was crossing a busy street, headed for a bus stop. On the way I was greatly stressed by all the traffic. I felt panicked and clausterphobic, because I knew I couldn’t cross the street soon, without risking death. After crossing, which took about 15 minutes, I sat at the bus stop, quite shaken. Traffic roared by. Suddenly, I got this feeling, that everything that was happening should be. The street turned into a vein, and the cars into blood cells. I prayed to Mother Earth for answers.

My prayers were answered in this way. The awareness came to my mind that everything that was happening, was ok. All that I am experiencing is the flow of life. What needs to happen will. My purpose is to observe and add my input as I see fit. We are all pieces of higher being.

In The Beginning: Journal of the Art Of Sam Celia

Wow! This image is so beautiful to me. It easily could be my favorite painting! So what is it? It was based on a dream in which this object was the tutorial for “In The Beginning”.

What that means, I’m really not sure, but I see it to apply to so many things! In a nutshell it represents the formation of something new, and yet undefined. I believe my site here is the epitome of this! I’ve often told my commenters that this isn’t just my site, but something we build together. This is how I want it to be!

For now though, I want to take this to another level.

This shape is almost formless, yet threatening to become something. I see it as a possible stage before the evolution of anything. Art is the manipulation of lines, rays, curves, and space. Before this can occur, something must allude that it can.

Within our minds, shapes appear, and from them the generation of universes! Once again, I will state a little acknowledged truth. Whatever we dream about, we should be able to paint, perform, or in some way replicate without flaw. Why? We create all of the dream characters we have. So, we really know what they look like. Our problem is knowing ourselves! If we can’t face what we are doing, or too lazy to try, then of course, we will find it hard to replicate the images in our heads.

Surrealism to the rescue!

This is the purpose of automatic drawing, accidental art, psychedelic art, and exercises such as ” The Exquisite Corpse”. All these are merely an attempt to access our own personal power. It’s a great mystery that we find it so hard to do this, but it’s the case! It appears that our minds are reluctant to being understood, even by themselves.

This is why we imbibe in all the ways we do. Life outside of the “Free Flow”, it painful and basically pointless. Within the “Free Flow”, all things are in reach, and life makes sense. Surrealists look at the initial outflowings of reality, and attempt to stay with them, because we seek maximum reality! Not being dead is far from enough, we wish to experience life first person.

I pay careful attention to my dreams. Even though I seek to find meanings, this is not the ultimate purpose of dream work. Being, in dreaming, conscious, and acting with sobriety will bring the truth to fruition. We really need to understand that we are

dreaming all the time we are alive. What we gain from our dreams, and our entire experience of life, is as much as we are willing to engage in it. Outside of the dream is only birth and death, if even that! The rest depends on our clarity and fluidity. We have to accept life as being a dream to wake up and learn how to live it.

There are some really sharp individuals in the world! They used to intimidate me greatly! What I found is that these people live consciously in their dreams, so they have full access to their own minds. Though we might think so, they probably don’t personally understand us at all, but they respond to images in a way their dream directs.

It is imperative that we all act in such a fashion.

Getting back to my painting: what thoughtforms does it provoke, what is it telling you? This polymorphic form could become something tangible with the slightest hallucination! I’m thinking soon of creating sculptures of images such as this. I would love to feel this image with my hands. Would it be hard and cool, warm and soft, rubbery, slimy, smooth or rough? Just this image alone could yield possibly ten sculptures, all appearing the same, yet feeling different.

A new perspective!

Could this not be a pillow, a chair, a sex toy, a window, a toilet, a vase, a garment? It could be anything! My challenge is to make it into as many things as possible. It would have so many applications in modern living rooms, as wall art, in bed rooms, bathrooms, and offices. It could be a flowerpot.

For those of you dedicated to self sustaining lifestyles, think of it’s awesome potential in an urban vegetable garden layout! See, in many cities, it is actually illegal to grow produce in your front yard. In some places, it’s illegal to grow your food at all!

There is no law I know of against floral art!

This could be a nice vegetable growing container, and even a hydroponic, or aquaponic system.

I’m going on and on about this so much to give value to an idea I have concerning art. Let me call it a theory. By reducing an object to it’s most primal form, we can expand it’s awareness to the upmost potential. What was once a cool concept known mainly by hippies and psychology students, can now become a part of ordinary life for many. The benefit of this is that as long as the form remains truthful to itself, there will be a transmission of awareness to all exposed to it. It really doesn’t need to matter why.

NLP devotees take heed! These images are very powerful. Unlike hand signs and what not, such images translate directly to the mind, and root themselves quickly. Connect an idea to such an image, and it will be lodged in every part of the mind provoked by that image!

As a tool in hypnosis, attaching a suggestion to this image will drive that suggestion to anywhere in the mind the image stimulates!

Now, follow me carefully here…

By increasing the points in the mind the image stimulates, you will increase also the potential of that image to induce massive changes to thinking, and society as a whole. All that needs to be done is to apply the image to as many points of life as possible, and then attach a suggestion to it.

Right now, I won’t even bother to tell you why,

Use the force for the benefit of all!

Please try these techniques out in your art, psychology, NLP or whatever, and let me know how it goes. I would love to collaborate with like minds!


Connect with your dream imagery… Purify by simplifying it… Expand it to the max!

Be Good!