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For All Those Suffering With Suicidal Thoughts : 6 Pieces Of Wisdom

Suicide


is a subject I seldom think of, or care to contemplate. I am writing this post today, because I am dedicated to offering value to all those my style of thinking can reach.


It is quite troubling to me that so many people I know, are at least somewhat considering suicide! Often, these appear to be otherwise brilliant people! So where did this toe-gem of a bad idea come from?


Granted, the stress level of modern society is off the hook! It seems to be becoming harder and harder to find a space to center oneself. Also, many personal expectations of life have been challenged by the changing times. We cannot expect to fulfill all, or even most of our vintage comprehensions of who we should be.


I suppose that some just want to clock out while they are ahead:]


There is another category of people considering suicide, because they are so tormented by physical or mental illness, that they find life unbearable. My heart goes out to these people. I can get that there is some point when suffering can overcome the will to live.


Regardless of the reasons,


I am asking that anyone who wishes to end their life do their very freakin’ best to find a calm spot, and think about this matter very carefully!


Now, get this….


I am in no way trying to preach to anyone about what’s wrong or right. It’s just that suicide is a decision you can not take back!


As a young kid, I was big into drama. Once, when I couldn’t get my way, I told my dad that if he would not let me do whatever, [I forgot what], I would kill myself!


I’m still shocked at my father’s wisdom in his response!


He didn’t even blink. Sitting wordless for a moment, he broke that silence with a haunting piece of wisdom.


“I learned a very important thing back when I was in the navy. See, when I was off duty, my friends and I liked to party, and we partied hard! We would get so drunk, that we were really insane. Despite that insanity, I never forgot the most important rule of my training, that it is unwise to enter any building with only one way out. If you must do so, always stand or sit facing the door, so you can see what’s going on, and who is coming in.


This has saved my life many times. I don’t want you to have to go to war in order to learn this. The worst thing about killing yourself, is that it is the ultimate room with no escape!


Once you enter that place,


it no longer matters if you change your mind. The time for choices will be over!”


That was all he told me about that, and reverted to small talk. Such wisdom!


After that, the thought of suicide became off limits to me, in any serious sense. Sure, I went through a punk phase where I wrote “suicide” on my jacket, but that was just rebel flexing, if you get my meaning. Making decisions that cannot be recalled, are very scary, and usually stupid!


I hope that sharing my father’s words will help someone!


Mistake not that I don’t have my own take. This is far from over! So now I will speak my thoughts about this subject.


1. For all the religious,


what does your faith believe about suicide?


Most religions speak loudly against it, and a majority claim that it is a damnable sin. This means, you will go to hell!


Other religions state that it is an obstacle to enlightenment, which is about the same as the previous, except there is no penalty, only loss.


There obviously are exceptions to my statements, but these can be clearly seen as a political movements adoption, adaption of a religion. I will mention no names!

That’s all I will flex from religion!


What’s really important to remember, is that


2. You,


will only exist, as you are now, in one time and space. I am not refuting reincarnation, just that you will never be


here again! As you are.


When you die, you are gone. No more to feel the sufferings of life, but equally unable to feel the relief.


3. What I find way more important,


is that I know that every being has a place in the “Great Scheme Of Things”, though I really could care less how they play it! I do hate to see anyone cheated, screwed, and lost to themselves.


4. I see reports on the state of humanity, and our planet, everyday. Seriously, I study this shit!


Every day, lives go down the crapper for various reasons, and so many of these souls are crying for


“One More Day!”


Just one more chance to perceive, and be a part of this phenomenal world,


“One More Day!”


To be with family, to work on a trade, to find oneself, or to be alone. “Please God,


Give Me One More Day!”


So you are truly tired of life? You just want it to end? You want to suck the barrel of a shotgun?


Not sure what more needs to be said.


I would recommend that if this is really how you feel, that you spend your life in the service of others. That way, you will be ending yourself, but in a good way. You could make a difference to those who do love life, and want more. Maybe your calling is here.


5. Are You Sure That Ending Your life Is A Good Idea?


See, no matter how wise or stupid you are, someone will follow your lead! Would you advocate this path? Would you tell your kids, “don’t worry if life gets tough, if it does, just kill yourself.”


6. Now, on to the deep stuff!


unconvinced, want it all to end!


Once again, I must remind you,


that this life is your one chance to claim your space. You have a mission to accomplish, and a world to build! Who for, you may ask? For you! You were brought here, possibly without choice! Building your kingdom probably involves getting the most out of this world you were brought into. You may not like where you are, and if so, how great would be your joy to change that!


I am convinced that this is a world built for warriors!


To me, failure to arise to the occasion is repugnant, if it is self made. Death will find us all soon enough, but we have work to do, and an immortality to achieve!


There is no room for losers in this world, but only you, can make yourself one! To die in your service is to achieve your island, your point in time, and a kingdom of your very own! So you have to have enough guts to keep going for as long as you can. It could be a very long ride, but well worth it. You, are all you will ever have.


Almost a year ago, I had an MRI of my brain. See, as with all, aging causes health problems, and my doctor recommended I get one. This was the most enlightening thing that ever happened to me. You might need to experience it to get it, I don’t know. I will try to tell you what happened to me that day.


The procedure was drummed up to seem quite scary. My doctor prescribed a valium to prevent possible panic. I was inserted into a “metal cave”, and heard crazy techno music blasting into me. Scary? Only a little bit. It was mainly fun! After getting out of the chamber, I saw the technicians processing the data on my brain. The coolest part was that I saw my brain live, and fell in love!


From that image, I saw what I really was. Funny to think about or say, but seeing the real me released me of the need for anyone else! That doesn’t mean that I don’t enjoy social gatherings, making love, or the communion with family and friends. It’s like I know now who really loves me, and I love them too. They are such a wonder, and miracle beyond measure. They are me!


I encourage you to find yourself,


the rewards are great!


Your choices are, and well they should, be yours, and yours alone! I don’t report people with suicidal thoughts. If you want to die, go for it! Please make your decision consciously!


As for me,


I love this world, and all her good, and all her evil, because I love myself, and I am of her.


Love and blessings to all!



Princess, Horse, Elephant And Boar : Art Symbolism In A Lucid Dream

From the blackness rose that peculiar vibration. It surged up through my bed, into my back, and spread through my entire body, like a slightly uncomfortable shock. “Here It Goes Again!” Feeling my insides changing shape, being penetrated and contorted, I knew for sure the lucid dream state was upon me. Opening my eyes, it was still dark. The clarity of my thinking concerned me, because I did not wish to wake up yet. Saw a spinning, silverfish ball in the dark, just in front of me, and knew it to be my third eye. It was time to assume “twin Positions.”


Began to spin within the black ectoplasmic soup that surrounded me. I repeated this two more time, then opened my eyes. As if I were awake, my bedroom looked as it usually does, my bed felt as it usually feels. Early morning sun shining through my window seemed to confirm that the dream was over. Checked my cellphone, and the time was 8:15 am. Suddenly the internal vibrations resumed, and closing my eyes, and re opening them, I was once more surrounded by darkness. Mission successful! I am now locked in the dream world, and will need to wake up three times to leave it!


[Though the technique is called  “Twin Positions”, one may actually continue to wake up in as many dreams as they wish, and must wake up in reverse from each one before they ay awake from dream reality. FYI.]


Feeling the need to scream! Don’t know why exactly. Believe it is just my way of releasing internal pressure. It could have been a fart, belch, or giggle. Four screams, and off to work.


Entering the door of a large metal sided building. Although it looked like a warehouse, it was much bigger than any I have seen. It was at least three stories high, and nearly the size of a city block. The inside was quite different, containing many large rooms, many were rooms I had seen before during the course of my life. There were classrooms as well, which were similar to those of my high school days, the genetic cinderblock walls painted with shiny enamel in tacky colors. Much of the floor was paved with off white nylon tiles.


Walking down the hall, I came to a bend. Turning left, I continued to walk until I reached a door. Opening it, I saw it was my father’s bedroom. The floors had dirty old carpet, and his bed was covered in dust. I said “Dad, let’s get out of here!” His hair long and unkempt, much as a man on a long drinking binge, his look sullen but content, I was deeply concerned for him. He shook his head, saying “no, I want to stay here, and I want you to stay here too.” I told him that I did not wish to stay, and hope he will come with me instead. “I will not stay here long, please come with me now. Let’s get out of here!” He shook his head again, so I closed the door and began running away.


Knowing I was within a dream,


it became important for me to test my powers here. Thrusting my arms through a metal wall, I passed into the next room, and was joyously greeted by a good friend, and ex lover. She hugged me firmly, and told me how happy she was to see me. My libido being what it is, I couldn’t resist the temptation to have sex. It was awesome, though it started to turn weird. Going down on her was great! She tasted so wonderful, and I noticed that huge, swollen clit of hers, throbbing to the caresses of my tongue and lips. Suddenly it began to grow larger and larger, until it was almost a foot long! If that proved not to be strange enough, it began to grow bumps and knots, finally looking like an arm of an octopus, complete with suckers. I stroked it gently, and walked away.


Just a little way down the hall, I met another ex girlfriend. She threw her arms around me, and began sucking on my neck, whispering “it’s so great to see you again. I thought I would never be here with you!” Once again, my libido took over, and I licked my finger, and snaked it through her shorts and into her soft warm butt. After getting it in there as deep as possible, I pulled it out and sucked on it. The flavor was intense, delicious, and captivating! Started to feel seminal fluid running down my leg. My head started spinning, and once more, I lay in my bed. Checked the time. 8:15 am.



Time often works differently here. Frequently, it goes through loops. Therefore, the sense of time through experiences, cannot be used to evaluate physical time. At least I’ve found it so.


Suddenly a trumpet sounds. I am now in a completely different building, the Cameron Art Museum.


Sitting in a chair, in the first display room to the right, I listened with excitement to words about the oncoming display. It was said to be colossal! The greatest show ever to be presented! The sound of a girl’s scream broke the air savagely. The doors swung open, and a princess dressed in white rode into the room on a white horse. they proceeded to the back, behind row of chairs and eager viewers. next, an elephant walked into the room, swinging it’s trunk side to side, and walking to the back. After that , a boar came running in, growling at everyone, and following the elephant. I got scared, and ran for the door. More than some ran out as well. Leaving, I saw the horse running for the door, and hid behind it. The boar ran as well. Someone petted it on it’s way out. It sniffed my leg, and ran on.


I felt a little ashamed that I ran out of the room, but my fear of these big animals was strong!



Obviously, those who remained in the room were unharmed. Not one of these animals tried to harm me, though all but the elephant rapidly followed me as I left. Don’t know where the princess went. Think she is still in the room. The boar was the only animal to find me in hiding, but he left me alone.


The vibrations resumed, and three times, I woke up in my bed, my bedroom, and house.


Getting up, I felt a little nausea and stomach grumbling. Probably too much beer and T Day leftovers! Perhaps the effects of intense lucid dreaming. Whatever. From this dream, I have gained a wealth of subject matter for painting, and dream symbolism to investigate!


One more round on the merry go round!


Good night. Sweet dreams!

Is Digital Painting Killing Art? : My thoughts

I saw this question on Quora, “Is digital painting killing art?” I have quite strong feelings to this question, because I have lived in the art world all my life, and generally have loved it. One thing I really hate about it though, is the arrogance and bigotry that seem to follow most artists, and their movements. Many beloved artists have shown their share of ignorance when it comes to defining what art is. This is a shame! I wish my profession was free from the back stabbing, ankle biting ways of other trades, but it is not!


What do most artists argue about? Technique!


“Her technique is inferior to mine”, “his art is wrongly motivated”, “he just copies and pastes”, “oil painting is an anachronism”, “watercolor is for kids”, “acrylic is an inferior medium”, and the list of crying just goes on!


Wah, wah, wah! Are we talking art or mush?


All art mediums are just that, a mode to accomplish art. Each have their sets of advantages and drawbacks. There is not a one, in past, present, or future, which is superior, or inferior. Art technique, is simply the way an artist chooses to represent their art!



Digital art is no exception. It does not give anyone the ability to produce better art, nor does it lessen the accomplishments of a master. All it does is covers space in an artist’s vision. How that space is covered is the only concern.


So, in digital art, we can capture an image, and merge it with another. Is the same not true for collage, or photo montage? I strongly believe that digital art is capable of fulfilling the dreams of painters such as Salvador Dali, and many other surrealists, myself included!


There are drawbacks!


One good example is that the images in digital art are formed by pixels, and not solid sheets of color. Therefore, enlarging the image beyond a certain point reveals that it is composed of many little squares of color. Not always a bad thing, though it could present problems for some. Another potential problem is that since digital art is not physical, artists would be wise to create a number of backups, to insure the safety of their work.


Furthermore, much of the art world is still a little backward. Artists used to rely on art dealers to market them, much as musicians are marketed by record labels. Many art dealers would prefer to work with expensive physical property, so digital artists might do best to market themselves, or hire a website manager.


This being what it is,


I still strongly believe that digital offers a great future to artists who enjoy presenting their work in cyberspace. The tools are out there to produce quality art equal to the talent of the artist.


there are definite advantages!


1. Ever heard the term starving artist? It is very hard to make good money being an artist. Using physical media, one very expensive piece must be sold at a time, ad someone has to both want, and be able to afford it. This greatly narrows one’s clientele. Digital art may be sold as downloads, so one piece of art can be sold over and over. This opens an opportunity for an artist to pocket a steady income, if they have talent. Sure, downloads are cheap, but in quantity, they add up! I will venture to say that a good artist could make more money on one piece using digital, than a traditional master was ever able to! Van Gogh more than likely would have established great success…um…, before he died, if he was willing and able to market his works in cyberspace.


Just telling it like it is!


2. Art is about much more than money! It is “a relationship to life”, “A science and religion”, “A calling from God”, “A conduit for evolution, physical, cultural, emotional and physical”, “A great psychological therapy, without the need for prescription.” To all this and more, I greatly agree.


What I do have problem with,


is that so many dismiss the importance of getting paid for our services, since we really need to! To have a profession is to offer value to others. In order to stay alive long enough to do so, one must get paid! [not too crazy a concept, huh?] I believe the artists of today stand a beautiful chance of being able to communicate their vision to the entire world, at a price that even a rough economy can afford.


By doing so, they may offer value to billions of people, who really need what they have to offer, but until now, could not afford it! This is a win/win for all. The catch is, artists will have to evolve along with the rest of the world, or have problems. We already do, so what’s to lose? :]:]:]


3. Paints take time to dry, and eventually deteriorate. True statement. Digital is dry immediately, and a finished work will remain as long as the device it is housed in. Say you put your art on a flash drive several times. Unless all copies are destroyed, your work will remain alive, untainted, and potentially viral! Ain’t that great news?!!!


My father, Saant Celia, definitely one of the greatest artists who ever lived, painted in oil. He was very concerned over atmospheric conditions, such as extreme humidity, heat or cold. These could ruin what he spent months to build! I see some of his work today, and it brings tears to my eyes to see it has changed somewhat, due to age. Everything changes, that’s fct, but digital stands a good chance of lasting a very long time, at least as long as cave art. Drives and cd’s will likely be able to be read hundreds of years from now, and be converted to the latest technology, as time demands. Just a thought.


4. One of my favorite perts concerning digital art, is that it opens my sphere of communication to anywhere the internet can. Right now this means Planet Earth. I have so much to say, and so little time to do so. It’s wise to embrace what extends your life!


So,


digital art is not for everyone, and that’s fine. It does offer some great advantages to artists.


All I really ask is that those who wish to judge an art form become well acquainted with it, before they speak a word. It is common of humans to abuse what they don’t understand and therefore dismiss what discomforts them. We artists are not common people. Accept all and think for yourself!



Artist At The Edge Of Magic


Greetings All!


My last post was very short, while this one may be quite long. I hope you enjoy, and get something from it. You will see a lot of my latest art here. Remember I said I needed to take a break and refresh. This is what it has come to…


Election Day!, Save our country!, “Bad Hurricane, how dare you cost me $90!,


“You want to save our world? Better give me some money, before it’s too late!” By the way, we have the best spaceship to Heaven, and we are offering it for the very low price of $5000,000,000, but we have payment plans available. Don’t let our bad economy stop you from getting it all!


Well, it’s really not we, only me. Hey, make your payments available to


Sam


and God willing, Heaven will be yours! :]:]:]


After an unholy butt load of that crap, and seeing that I really have something to say, I retired to my art for inspiration. Unholy summer of un stained panties and swimwear! There is so much more than something to say. I’ve got some things to show. Yes, I have more than one:]:]:]access-and-transcend


So I’m drawing the “Ice Curtains” to politicians right now, this is about me!ice-curtains


I am an artist


to qualify, I am an artist


At the edge of magic!artist-at-the-edge-of-magick


My physical form changes constantly, such as life and reality…


I am not at liberty to play games on you, though I would love to play them with you. Consider me as The Green Man In  contemplation. My world is new, and I’m hoping that your world is too. Otherwise, sail off…the-green-man-in-contemplation


I invoke the power of a great lantern to light my way. Together forming this lantern, we are a god/goddess. We become the holiest of holy, by transformation into the unholy.lucifer


By this I mean, facing reality. There is nothing in this world that can help us get our lives straight, unless it is ourselves! The Gods and Goddesses are merely icons, until we incarnate them! Get it?baphomet-rising


Without pseudo reasoning for a mentor, our focus often turns to “Death.” Are we really not fearing an ending for a greatness not begun? Where was I when I needed help? I’m hoping to instigate answers to these questions.deaths-head-moth


The universe has bestowed us with gifts such as love, which in reality is an embracing of self, and lust, which keeps it all moving. Furthermore, we have everyday life as a reality check. Going back to love, embracing self is embracing all. Just think about it! We are beginning a journey. Hope we are all together.Tantric Reformation


Regardless of style, art is a science of symbolism. It has been used from primordial times and up to the present, to concentrate bands of perception into usable and potent aggregates.point-of-no-return


In a well done painting, the awareness of a million years is condensed, and reincarnated in the present moment! We can see this in every art revolution that’s ever existed. Test this yourself. Observe and contemplate the art of different periods of history. Within each, the unchanging element can be found, and more! The art of every civilization and time period provides a window to that place, both in what it shows, and what it does not.The Weave


My point is that art is the most potent of all magickal tools, as well as the prime tool for social evolution and communication. Tarot decks are perfect examples of all I have inferred, yet it gets so much deeper! Art controls society completely!

The blowout of self-sodomy
The blowout of self-sodomy

You want to buy a home. Where will you wish to live, and what style of house would you wish to live in? Did you determine all you needed to from personal experience? You want to join a religion, list the motivators. The list could go forever, but doesn’t need to. Symbolism creates reality! Artists are architects of symbolism.

The undefined spaced in control
The undefined spaced in control

There are days when it may get difficult to understand these things. It probably would be better to say, that when things get rough, it becomes somewhat difficult to identify with the greatness of “true being”, and our purpose in this amazing continuum. It’s really just our ego’s feeling hurt, but these things will pass in the wake of transpersonal glory.


Every year, and every day of my life, the evidence builds!


I take a humble kind of pride in the knowing that everything is The Great Continuum, and I am doing my part. This Divine Fractal  expands and contracts in sensuous waves within the peaceful stillness of eternity. Jellyfish wisdom?


I have always loved and admired jellyfish. They are so beautiful and delicate. I see them as organic fractals, or individual “bing-bangs” pulsing with the tide. In spite of their great vunerability, the jellyfish is still one of the most successful species on earth, and probably have a great future! Why?


For one, they can be deadly predators without a passion for hate. Even if the jellyfish had a high IQ, I doubt it would make much trouble for anyone who left it alone. It likes to eat, and will consume whatever it can.


Secondly, jellyfish are highly adaptable to most any environment. Pollution may actually aid their success, by creating an environment rich in organic matter and a multitude of protein rich organisms. Wouldn’t it be cool if we could do that?


When a jellyfish washes up on a beach, or gets plowed by a passing boat, the other jellyfish don’t get depressed and whine about the futility of life. They eat, reproduce and die, like everything else, but do so without huge psychological problems. This is another reason they find it so easy to succeed.


In this lowly organism, the meaning of life is completely established, at least for now. Within their physical appearance, and their very nature, profound wisdom abides!


Now, about the “Great Intellectual Jellyfish”…


Several months ago, I had a MRI. Though I was prohibited from photographing my brain, I got to see it, and absolutely fell in love! For the first time, I saw the real me. It was a delicate creature, composed mainly of cholesterol, bathed in an inner ocean housed in a flesh machine. I was, and still am, in complete awe! This creature designed my life. It determined how long my hair should be, what I would eat, drink, or smoke, how I would react to whatever it’s decisions were. It decides how much of it’s awareness it should share with me, and in reality, what my life will be about.


This is the really cool part…


For that moment, I was in complete communion with myself. I could see my brain, looking back at me, and it was able to see it’s creation. It was also able to tell the deep love I had for it. From an MRI, I learned true self love! Get one if you can! They are very expensive, but of all the personal development tools I’ve tried, it was the best so far. By the way, if you do get one, and want the pic, you probably should click your cellphone without asking! I did, and they told me no. [they kinda suck!] Partially joking, as I know they have their rules to protect their business, and that should get some respect. Never the less, this is me, and they should feel the sting of a thousand nettles for holding such a personal picture from me. I still plan to get it!


So in this post, I am sharing with you my most recent art, and the inspiration behind it. Soon I will return to my social and political engagements, as there is a lot to be addressed! As of now, please contemplate the beauty and power of art, and employ it in your life as you see fit.under-the-bridge



 Hope all had a happy Halloween. Autumn blessings to you!autumn-fire


 harvest-moon

So Great To Be Back!

To all who view my site, I’m sure you’ve noticed that lately I’ve posted very little. This is because I needed some time to rediscover me, and the crazy wonderful world that inspires my posts! Election day is coming soon, and the closer it comes to being here, the less I wish to speak about politics.


This is a site for art, and artistic expression.


I have shared with all of you, my views on politics, and so for now,


It’s time to move to bigger and better things.


All the same, please don’t forget to vote! In this new world, ideas matter more than ever! Voting in my opinion, is less about the candidates than it is what they have to offer you. Please keep this in mind! Let me give you a silly example:


You read “The Philosophy Of Joe Schmow.” Finding it greatly inspiring, you followed his posts and political campaigns, etc. Later, your enthusiasm is dashed against rocks, as you hear that Joe is a complete fraud! Joe is a liar! Joe is a money hungry nutcase! Joe is really Jane:] the list goes on… Now Joe is campaigning for the very things you wish for yourself and your country. Ask yourself if Joe can prevail. Will he? Invest in your future. The faces are just icons. Support the visions closest to your own, and afterward, do your part to bring them to physical reality!


In future posts, I plan to continue with the themes of art and magic. I plan to offer ideas concerning mind expansion, consciousness extension, life extension, personal development, and much more!


I would love your input here. What are your dreams and concerns? What is your vision of the future? Look deep into that eye looking into your deepest being. What is there to say?


Until next time,


Love, Love under will.

The Self Centered Vision For A Free Life


We frequently question what life is all about, while sadly ignoring ourselves and our personal reality. This is why we tend to feel so trapped and used. We seek the external world, and have done a good job of finding it. What has happened is that we have discovered a way to “make the car drive us, instead of us driving the car”. The result of this folly is that although very busy, and apparently engaged in life, we are just running around unconscious.


While in this state of mind, we are dominated by our external circumstances, and our primal drives. This puts us in a bad place for addressing the needs of the future. Our ability to develop new perspectives is greatly compromised. We are living in a dream which evolved thousands of years ago, and whose time has passed. Although it was highly effective for establishing order, and keeping the human species from extinction, the game has changed. It’s time for something new.


Over the world, population is rising out of control. We are running out of food and land to support this increasing population. Despite this global emergency, our teens are adhering faithfully to their instinct to replicate at all cost. They are out of control. The reason for this is that creating children is still one of our leading focuses in life. Lead by antiquated drives, we are securing the basis for our much feared extinction.


Why are we not coming up with educational programs designed to instill a sense of self value in our youth? Why are we not trying harder to create a state of selfishness in our young, that might lead them to building themselves instead of replicating. When will we call for a generation to offer quality over quantity?


Oh, perhaps I can explain:]


Maybe it is because we live under a divine law, “Be fruitful and multiply.”


I would love to hear a comment from the author of this command that would explain how we should do so, and feed these offspring now that their numbers are greater than our recourses to care for them? What’s even worse is that we are doing very little to develop the recourses needed to even try to satisfy this great task. Every second, babies are born, cigars are passed, a forest dies, a debt increases, and life goes on!


For how long?


I’m not sure!


How long can we extend a welfare program to an increasing population fighting for a limited job demand? How long before our natural recourses are depleted by our “out of control species?” Where will we go when we run out of standing space? Someone tell me!


The thing is, that is only a small part of what I want to talk about. My concern here is a long term solution to the problem, or should I more fairly say… Disbalance!


These days, many folks are throwing out potential solutions, especially since we are so close to election time! I believe I have a long term solution to this problem, and I’m giving it for free, even though I’m running for no office.


Take it or leave it, the intelligent have nothing to lose by trying it on! The movement began over two hundred years ago, though it’s only started to catch. The primary goal is to teach to the living of all ages that their life and purpose are of greatest importance, and so it’s cultivation is one’s only true consideration.


By refining your life from a chunk of coal, into a diamond, you will be doing much better than if you created huge amounts of coal. If you refine yourself into one capable of finding solutions, you will have achieved more than ten generations only able to repeat a pattern! If you solve your problems with dependence, your wisdom may end a need for welfare. Should you take the time to love yourself, you will never need another for self validation. You will be a miracle you rejoice in!


Now for many, extreme debt, screaming babies, job concerns, social obligations and more, will prevent the necessary evolution to enter this brave new world. Many will be afraid, or feel their urges are morally wrong.


It is much easier to comply than to really evaluate and create. These days, compliance will solve no problem, as the authorities know less than the common masses they used to dominate!


Every age comes with it’s mottos and laws. I wish to state of the two which have yet to be fulfilled, and very likely, will address the questions of our day.


I paraphrase both of these… Think you’ll get the point.

On his death bed, Buddha responded to the question on which precept was most important. He responded, “be a lamp unto yourself.” In like condition, Aleister Crowley announced, “Do what thy wilst will be the whole of the law, love under will.”


Should one not understand the language of those days, it would appear a riddle or nonsense delivered by both.  Looking closer, it can be seen that they both are delivering the same ultimate command. See, to do what you will is not the same as doing anything you want, it implies introspection, strategy and practice. It directly demands that one ” be a lamp unto themselves.”


It involves changing the scenario from being one looking outward to the world, to a world looking inward toward you. It puts full authority in your hands, while removing excuses for failure. When you know who you are, there is no failure.


I hope to inspire a generation of people


1. To question the ethics of their past


2. To live for themselves and forsake all others!


3. To consider pleasures of the flesh as beautiful rituals between lovers, and not just a tool of procreation.


4.Indulge fully in the pleasures of self and flesh, yet leave nothing to be unintentionally carried over.


5. To see the world as their ultimate lover, and protect her from all threats, even ourselves!


6. To bring life into the world when more is needed, and refrain from doing so when it is not.


7. In all cases and matters, be the change you want to see.


8. Follow your bliss!


The big day is coming up… Election day! I encourage everyone to get out and vote! Just do it! Do your best to show your candidate what you need!


Now, a special message to our candidates:


I’ve heard what you are saying, and have varying views to both of you. I would love to believe that you both really love and wish to serve your nation. If this is the case, please drop the campaigning, get together in private, and come up with a good plan for your country! Both of you, together, could do something really incredible! Will you, or just take care of business as usual? I think you both have it in you to bring about great things!


a special message to anyone reading this:

Awake!


Population Control And The American Dream

As an introduction to this post, I want to offer a dictionary definition of “The American Dream”. It is a beautiful one, and most accurate! I found this definition while doing some late night book browsing. I hope it reaches you as it did me.


“The American Dream is the ideal that every United States citizen should have an equal opportunity to achieve success and prosperity through hard work, determination, and initiative.”


So true! What I really love about this definition is two-fold. First, it clarifies that the dream is really that there can be a place and government where hard work and initiative pay off. Secondly, that in this place, we have an equal opportunity to make our dreams come true, if we are willing to work for them!


Sadly, these days,


“Work” is a four letter word!


Yes, it is a four letter word, but far from a bad one. Work is simply the way things get accomplished. Accomplishment is good… Right? Here is another most wonderful definition by James Truslow Adams, the writer and historian who coined the concept.


“The American Dream is that dream of a land in which life should be better and richer and fuller for everyone, with opportunity for each according to ability or achievement.”


I recommend that everyone create a plaque with these words on it to view in a special place in their homes.  If they did so, perhaps they would approach their dreams with more reverence, and a realistic world outlook. I fear that as of now, we are breeding a new race of lazy, hopeless, and stupid beings who believe that their lives and country are worthless, and therefore exist only to satisfy their empty whims.


I hate to say it but it’s so obvious, that a great percentage of the U.S. population hate working for anything at all, and consider their country at best to be the evolution of their mom’s tits. If this outlook is catching, we are, as a nation, doomed! If I offend anyone, I’m not sorry. I love my country because I took the time to research and explore the dreams of those who handed this great nation down to us. They did not intend for our country to be a huge daycare unit for the mentally impaired. They were women and men who lived through extremely hard times, and wished for everyone a chance to be able to work hard to make their dreams become reality.


There are many places where one may work hard all day long, and still come home with little or nothing to eat. Many prosper in lands like these, they are the elite! The blood, sweat and tears of the common man put dinner on their plates. These disposable masses live in anger and resentment sometimes, but usually have to accept their place as pawns, or become outlaws.

In the United States, it is amazing how spoiled many of us are, yet more resentful and lifeless than a starvation victim in a third world country! Something is going awfully wrong!!!


It is a blessing that should you lose your job, you probably can collect unemployment. It is a blessing that if you become disabled, or were born that way, there are programs to assist your survival. I see these as beautiful gifts from good, hard working people who didn’t want to see others fail due to tragedy or dis opportunity. I support these programs, because I know that bad things can happen to anyone, good people are not exempt. If one day I find that I can no longer work, I will be most thankful for public assistance.  but


It enrages me to see a huge number of people on welfare campaigning against our country, and throwing up gang signs, when most of them would starve to death if they were living anywhere else, because they are lazy, depressed, devoid of dreams, and are just fine with that. Eventually, they will sink into the abyss of a hell they created for themselves, and most will wish they were never born.


This brings me to the main point of my post!


Our biggest problems come from a far and distant world. This place has long passed, but our genetics have not caught up yet. We still have “Hunter/Gathers” in our society. These people oddly, are gaining new ground due to our charity, but their place in evolution has been filled. On another level, but just as bad, if not worse, are those who live their entire lives, just for their children. They hope for them, a better life, and transmit their sickness to them, so they will do the same!


These people may seem kind on the surface, but careful observation reveals them as “lost souls”, who attempt to live the lives they wanted, through their children. Of course, this never happens, they die bitter, and their children usually repeat the cycle. So what happened to “The American Dream”?


It is not dead,


it just has of yet to reach the masses!


Think about this…


We are cranking out babies at an ungodly rate, before we create ourselves, and our personal mission statement. When we decide to become adults before we are, this will happen. Sometimes I really can’t blame the “Welfare Nation” for existing, because it was so enabled. We have kids cranking out more kids, yet there are very few guidelines for these kids to live by.


When one really understands the concept of “The American Dream”, they will most likely find it unavoidable to start working on some project they see as very important. It will overtake their apathy, and they will protect their ideas from failure.


How will they protect their ideas from failure? They will work hard. They will develop passion for their own lives, and think twice about procreating before, and if ever, this challenge will further their cause. They will get it together” before they pass their genetics. They will understand that their lives, their future, and reason for being, are theirs alone. So solitude will be relished as an opportunity for personal growth.


Remember the dreams you had as a child, the great things you planned to do to prosper and make your world a better place? Make these your children before you decide to make babies. Bringing another into an aimless world is sentencing them to suffering, and uncertain hells. Would you wish this for your kids? Procreate yourself, before others.


The wilderness and oceans are the lungs of the world. Everyday, we are polluting the seas, and destroying the forests to make more homes for our babies. When we run out of these resources, we will all die! We are now scared of eating healthy fish, such as salmon, mackerel, and tuna, because we have poisoned our world with mercury. We are running off cattle ranchers for new developments to house our growing population. The price of beef and dairy is skyrocketing!


So tell me, when is a better time to get our priorities right than now? The old school rednecks advice” not to breed, what you can’t feed”, is actually great wisdom. It is time for those in the world who want a future, to build one for themselves, and just enjoy it!


In summary


1. Love your world! Thank it for the gift of identity by contributing to it’s evolution, which begins with you.


2. Avoid sexual partners whose aim is to have babies. If they are not about their own dreams, and supportive of yours, move on.


3. Do not rely on any form of welfare unless you honesty have to. Save it for those who do. Become a conduit for prosperity by creating dreams, and destroying inadequacy. Create prosperity in your own special way!


4. Understand that your life is the most important aspect of your reality, and work constantly to build it. Be selfish! You will help others  more in this way than if you gave charity to them. You will also be much more likely to find fulfillment and happiness.

Facing The Illuminator

Before all else,


open your mind to understand that all of your nightmares originate inside, and not your physical life. Once you free your mind, you are completely free! The Illuminator challenges us to display our nightmares up front, even to the point of wearing their gore for all to see, and then going beyond them.


When we take a good look inside, many will notice a strange and terrifying place, inhabited by legions of intelligences in constant conversation and display, horrifying visuals and ominous landscapes. Of course, we are likely to find great beauty and angelic beings as well.


Some will believe that these voices are coming from the outside everyday world, and they will likely be deemed insane. Sadly for them, they will probably not reap the benefits of their illumination, due to a slight but serious misunderstanding. In a certain way, they are right, as the “dream of the universe” feeds our inner reality. Their problem is that they take the voices at face value, instead of interpreting their messages as guides to discovering higher reality.


For example, it is very easy to dream of a dead relative or friend, and then begin taking their advice to multiple questions on the basis that you believe they “are in Heaven now”, so must know the answers to everything! It is true that they existed, and so not only were, but are, a part of the world. It is also true that you receive their energy vibration because they are a part of you! If they were not, than without extreme rituals or heightened awareness, you would not recognize their voice.


In any case, they are, and always will be their part of the universal plan, but cannot speak for the entire universe! Neither can you. What you can do is spend your life gathering awareness, which is what we all do, like it or not, and extend this awareness forward through time. This is also why you have voices in your head:]


Now, by rectifying the pains of the so called “infernal voices” within, so may you purify your life of past errors which held you back from experiencing the joy and wonder of being alive. Now, this is not an easy job, and I’m not sure that anyone has completed it, though some come very close. I make it an everyday practice, which is one reason why I carefully study my dreams.


Facing The Illuminator


Keep looking within, past your life experiences, beyond the physical, astral and spirit worlds. Take reverent tuition in each before you pass them by. Leave gifts for all who you pass, but don’t stop until you reach a place of silence. Look at the world now from this place. Study the patterns of existence, and study yourself. I will not discuss what illumination you will find, lest I forge a lie from truth. I also will not speak the name of The Illuminator. I hope you won’t either!


“The Illuminator” is a description of a great and beautiful force and being, the nature of which is shrouded in amazing displays of phenomena. To some, this being is pure evil, [the sadly misinformed], to others, a god or beautiful angel, but the mystery of The Illuminator cannot be solved by words. To witness is the only way to know.


How to witness The Illuminator?


The outline is formed by “the shrouds of phenomena.” Look at it this way… The place where reality is no longer spoken of, or matched by description. Even the self melts away. All becomes a deep and personal love, without a focal point. Noone to think, to place or take praise or blame. Life goes on as usual, though nothing will ever be the same again. Spirits speak, bills come in, holocausts and romantic nights happen, but they are just part of the shroud of an eternal light, guiding the beloved, and this is you!


When you meet The Illuminator, present your perfect offering!


Offer no sacrifices, except for one, that being yourself! By this I mean to promise to keep the name silent, and to live a life “under the lamp”. You will live a normal, humble, but guided life, beyond the agencies of thought, emotion, and reason. You will follow your bliss as all do, yet better, as you offer it all to the light that guides  phenomena and pattern.


To end this post, I offer a poem!


“Gone are the days of wondering what to do. Where I will go is where I will go. My anthems are simple and humorous, for what need is there of rationalization? My food is delicious, just as my bed feels great, and all between are just a slide. As for passions, there are many, underneath that wonderful tree, a chorus of “Merry Christmas!”. Pleasures of the flesh are my obvious miracles, though I seek to be a saint, offering myself to the light in all I do. Keeping a little secret in all I do. Becoming aware that I am a miracle! Spirits clothe, and rub me to orgasm, now I am the zero before one!”

No Outflowings

In practice, it is wise to encourage inflowings over outflowings. These are terms of perceptions. To simplify, in ordinary life, we perceive something, and generate many thoughts about it. This is important to the daily functions of an individual. In practice, we must reverse this scenario in order to invoke the powers that support change and transformation.


Let’s consider the word “invoke.” In Voke. This being the opposite of Out Voke. Cite or appeal to [someone or something] as an authority for action or in support of an argument. This is the Google definition of invoke. Can you see the truth of this definition? It infers using your power to delegate authority to another. Right? Very right!

In magic and art, we strive to create a flow as to bring awareness to it’s highest place. Personally, our minds are filled with great power, but the awareness we seek flows down. Therefore, outflowings cannot normally reach the places of higher awareness. When sorcerers state that a certain magic can only teach you what you really already know, but forgot, this is what they mean.


Inflowings are different. They come from somewhere outside of us, obviously and just by definition! In this way, the higher descends into the lower. Previously invisible awareness becomes our own. Therefore, when we have outflowings, they will be greatly advanced from those we have had before. We may even seem like new beings, and this may not be far from the truth, as new awareness has filled the vessels that we are.


According to a definition of “old sorcerers”, we are containers of awareness, gourds for gathering energy. What our individuality is, is only the skin of the gourd. Inside is empty, but constantly being filled. Wow I love those guys! They got the idea before the bicycle was invented! Please allow me to refer to us as containers, or gourds:]


Look deep inside yourself, and perceive your emptiness. Tell us if you can what remains when conditions change. Invite The Illuminator into your life, and beckon to be searched deep inside. Pease tell us what you find:]


We can look at universal consciousness as both legion and unity. There is definitely an infinite interplay between multiple consciousnesses, which unify into nations that we can call an individual. Now, try to pin down the essential nature of the individual. If you remove just one part, will the individual remain as previously defined? No, they will transform into someone/something else.


Have you ever seen a person who has had a stroke, or other trauma, resulting in specific brain damage? It is sad, scary, yet very interesting. See, our brain is the radio and recording device for consciousness to be transmitted to. We are programmed from birth and until our death, by something undefinable. By this force, forms are recorded and replayed constantly, by the manner that they were delivered. When something in this recording is broken, consciousness within that area is modified or deleted. The result is that the person becomes someone else, from who they used to be. Although these transformations are often for the worse, they are not always. Once in a while, one is improved by brain damage!


What I am getting at, is that individuality is the result of unified inflowings. What are inflowings, and where do they come from? It is undefinable, but we could label it as “The Great Spirit”, God, The Goddess. All these would be correct, but only if they are understood as labels. All that we can really comprehend fully, is that this flow exists in everything, and everything is this flow. So we should know that…


1. Our personal identity is a precious gift, and a miracle!


2. That what we call personal identity is a container of sorts, which holds specific aspects of the undefinable flow.


3. That in death, all that is lost is the container, but what made it possible to begin with, will never die!


4. Outflowings are the result of personal identity, and our interpretations of our inflowings. So our outflowings will become inflowings somewhere, but they never will be truth for us, as we invented them, and we do not know!


Let me suggest a program called “No More Outflowings.” It is simply zen meditation, performed to a certain extreme.


Let yourself surrender to not knowing. Hey, you really don’t have a choice. Right? Now just sit, and watch for thoughts, especially conversations and explanations. You will find them, just drop them, again and again. Invoke the rising tide of the nourishing and eternal darkness. This is the “Lamp Of The Hermit.” When a color flashes, view it but let it go. Take no phenomena seriously. React to it only if need be, but in any case, release it. Return to the peace of “Eternal Void.” This is where all the phenomena come from, and return to. Decide that you will return to it too. You will, like it or not. The cool part is that when inside the flow, nothing is wrong, and everything is happy.

What more can we ask for? We can experience this for the rest of our lives!we should seek to create places devoted to meditation, and find friends to practice with. We can definitely help each other, especially when we hit the transpersonal levels. Discussions are good, among friends. We can talk to each other about our experiences, and offer solutions to keep those inflowings coming!


Please set at least a month of meditation practice, in which you will abstain from outflowings. Seek inflowings, but offer no definitions to yourself or others. At the end of that period, document results if you wish, or just continue.


Seek no consultation during this period with gods and goddesses, just invoke the darkness. What is being sought right now is ultimate purity, after that, the choice is yours! Just let it all stop, and bask in the stillness.


Let us begin now!



Black And White Art

I discovered black and white art in the late 1980’s, somewhat by accident. Although this art form was quite popular then, I never really paid much attention to what other artists were doing. Most of my art was wildly psychedelic, flaming almost! 1988 was a bad year for me financially. My job just didn’t pay enough, and my art didn’t sell well. I was too busy painting to look for exhibits, and my “word of mouth” strategy for marketing yielded poor results. Every once in a while, I would get an exhibit, or make a sale. Definitely not often enough to pay the bills.


Me being who I am, I decided to take a week off from work, to travel into the badlands and paint night and day! Wow, it was fun! I gained some very valuable insights then as well. My biggest learning experience came half way through the week. I was running out of paint. Though I had plenty of beer and other tools of creative instigation, plus a few days worth of cigarettes, I was flat broke. I mean I literally had no money! Well, maybe a nickel and some pennies, but less than a dollar. It took all I had not to seriously panic.


So I decided to make due with what I had, get as wasted as possible, and paint more. Somehow, I had faith that something would come through. Luckily, I had plenty of canvasses to work with. As well, I had a good amount of black, white, brown, and green paint. I added the brown and green to the black, along with all bottles of extra paint I saved up over the past year, giving me a quite beautiful shade of black:] I knew that some artists painted in black and white, and knew this was the perfect time to give it a try.


Working as I always had, using automatic painting and capturing visions from dreams, crystals, and life in general, I cranked out four beautiful paintings in two days! It was really shocking to me to see such professional work, and know I did it!


Luckily, a few friends took me out for drinks, at The Barbary Coast. After a lot of talking, I ended up with around ten people in my bedroom, viewing my art. They loved it, and so we all went back downtown, for more drinks, and to talk to people in the art world. Before Monday, all my black and white paintings were sold, and I had close to $1000!


Some artists would have seen this as a pitiful return, but I was astounded! What I learned, is that black and white art speaks to the consciousness in a unique way. Do it well, and it will be well rewarded. To date, I have never had a full color painting match the financial returns of a “black and white!”


I make no apologies for wishing to make money for my art, and considering financial returns as I paint. I want my art to be a career. However I paint, my work will always be uniquely mine. Over the years, what I’ve discovered, are new and better ways to represent my vision.

Black and white art


captures something that resonates with many people. It seems to give “extra color” to my visions. I wouldn’t say so if I didn’t see it myself. Though I have not chosen to paint only black and whites, I’m always delighted with the results when I do so. That is not about money, but me!


Sometimes, excluding color creates a space, sacred to the artist’s design. It’s like the troubles of the world are lifted from the image, and pure sensuality remains. It transmits all kinds of color to the emotional body, while pleasing the eyes.


Perhaps this style allows the viewer to “color” the painting as they see fit. I really don’t know, but it does something special. Such canvasses cast a spell over the room they live in. There will be many that visit that room, to capture the nuance, and take it home.


Who remembers black and white tv?


I sure do! Any of you who like to watch old movies probably will know where I am going with this. At least for me, these movies captured reality better for me than movies of today. Perhaps they worked harder to create a great movie, but I don’t think that’s it. There is a magical quality to “black and white”, that nothing has been able to replace. Remember “Heck Ramsey?’ It’s a must see! “The Cat Jumped Over The Moon”, check it out.


There are two ways to paint a good “Black And White.”


Paint a canvas black, and paint the image in white, or paint a canvas white, and paint the image in black. Between the two, I think the first is best, but this is strictly up to the artist. I love to have a black canvas, and begin adding imagery in white. The results are completely different from an ink drawing. Black images on a white canvas are great too. They offer the richness of a great drawing.


Decolorized images


often turn out great, though there are more than a few exceptions. Digital artists need to investigate the limits of this territory. My results have varied. Paintings that rely on specific color shades may not fare well in “black and white.” Paintings of food, or cooking shows do poorly in this technique.


Color tv was invented to give clarity to programming, and in technical ways, it does. I remember watching surgeries in black and white. These never prepared me for the later color versions. [Yes, I used to want to be a doctor:]]]


I seldom watch tv anymore, I just don’t really care for either the programming, or the presentation. Usually. Give me an Andy Griffith show, Little Rascals, Heck Ramsey, and I’ll be there. Still love “The Beverley Hillbillies”, without color! These were great shows, and expanded within the mind for years! It’s little wonder that black and white art is so popular.